I feel this ache in my hear. And I wonder, what’s the matter? Why am I feeling depressed, or anxious? How can I define this feeling? how can I even know what kind of feeling I am feeling right now?
Still, I’m feeling uncomfortable, I feel ill, I feel depressed and anxious. And I have no idea what to do. I can’t do anything. I’m trying to find an escape from any activity I have to do. From any meeting or commitment I already have.
I feel that my life is empty and it will remain empty, nothing will ever change, even if I rule the world, or become what I have always wanted to be. Nothing comforts me. I just lie there and try to think of nothing, and think only of the glorious things I can do or be.
I feel empty. I feel that the more I live the more empty I can become. And it terrifies me.