I wish I never truly had.
Wish I never met you, spoke to you or even saw you.
Feelings that I wish I never had feelings…
or fell for your eyes and spirit.
Wish I never had to go through your shit.
of too many years, of agony and pain. Of love and hatred.
Wish I never had to feel it. All of it. Feel it.
Now it hurts
Like thousands of knives are attacking my chest.
Wish I never had to scream. In pain. Calling out your name, with hatred and disgust.
Now you can fuck yourself. After you fucked up my life.
Fuck you. That I can say. That is all I have to say.
Get out, and get me out, of this hell you gave me.
Go away, fuck off and vanish. Or die.
Feelings. Of pain and agony.
Feelings, nothing more than just feelings.
Feelings of hurt and hate.
That love I had, years ago. Now gone. All vanished.
Replaced with hate and hurt.
Feelings that I should have never let you
in… in my life.
Feelings that I should have never gave you
more than a second chance… or a third.
Those feelings, should never come again.
Will never come again.
(words written above are merely inspired by the following song. A song that gives the shiver every time I listen to it, thinking, feeling…)