This month I turned 28

October is a very important month for me: mainly because during this month, on the 13th, it’s my birthday.

I never had the opportunity to have a very special celebration for my birthday. I always celebrate my birthday with few friends and some members of my family. I don’t have many friends, I know many people, but no one loves me enough to organize a grand celebration for my birthday.

I spent my birthday at the Dead Sea with some members of my family, which for me was enough. The whole day was not organized for me specifically, I merely joined. But it was fine. We spent few hours at the Dead Sea and the rest were on the road. It was fine.

And I keep saying fine, because it wasn’t entirely amazing, but it wasn’t that bad. I could have spent my birthday in bed, logging in to Facebook every two seconds to check who wished me a Happy Birthday.

On the day of my birthday, I had the chance to see a relative of mine in the US, whom I visited ten years ago, in New York, on my birthday. “Ten years ago, today, you were waiting for us at the airport.” I was 18 years old. I was young, just finished high school, and had no idea how the world works. I had no idea what I was doing, and what I was aiming for in life. Not saying I do now, but I changed, a lot.

Now, I’m 28 years old. I’m older, a bit wiser, and more successful than I was 5 years ago, let alone 10 years ago. I have a good job, and I started studying for Masters degree in English literature. Some people would never think this is a great achievement, but for me, it definitely is. I try not to compare myself to other people around me, but sometimes I do. But mostly, I would compare myself and my lifestyle now to my lifestyle 5 years ago, and this is a success for me.

I’m 28, almost 30. I’m single, and mostly tired and depressed. But why does that have to negative? I don’t need a lot. I’m a very simple person, and when I lack anything, I try to find a way to obtain it. As long as I spend my days and night doing what I feel comfortable doing, why do I have to worry much?

Je suis contente.

4 comments

  1. Hi Arwa, thanks for sharing this part of you, and Happy belated Birthday, too! Even though you said that you’re depressed sometimes, what you’ve accomplished is awesome. So, please be proud of how far you’ve come, and try hard not to compare yourself to others your age. You are successful, so pat yourself on the back because you’re deserving!

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    1. Hi. Thank you so much for your kind words.
      Yes, sometimes after comparing myself to others, I lie down and think of myself over the past ten years, and smile, because I’m proud of myself for getting this far. I’m at a place I only dreamed about.
      I supposed, sometimes, some of us aren’t satisfied with we we have, and we think that other are living a better life, or doing things better. We forget that we only need to live our lives our way, and not think of how others would do it.

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  2. Belated Happy Birthday

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    1. Thanks 🙂

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