December 2017 – Christmas and New Year

It was Christmas few days ago. And for some reason, I’m kind of glad it’s over. Indeed it’s the most joyous holiday or time of the year. But the fact that it’s considered the greatest holiday of the year, puts a lot of pressure on me as an ordinary person who has no idea how to celebrate. And my life isn’t a great accomplishment: I’m nearing the age of 30 and I’m still single. For my family, I have nothing to be proud of.

This year has been a great year for me. I started writing down everything that has happened to me this year, and I highlighted two elements that made my 2017 a great year. For many people my accomplishments this year are nothing, but for me they made a huge difference in my life, and I feel that for the first time in my life, I am indeed happy that the current year was not a complete waste.

I always measure my success with my previous accomplishments (that is when I convince my self to avoid comparing myself to others). I always measure my age with my previous age. I am in a complete different place than I were 5 years ago. And that is indeed amazing. Five years ago I had no real job, and I had no idea what I wanted to do.

Sometimes I still feel that I have no idea what I want to do, but I have a good job, and I’m preparing for Master Studies. I’m not entirely a different person, but my lifestyle has changed, and perhaps for so many people, like my family, I still lack the husband. It’s like I chose to lack a husband.

I think I’m blessed that the year 2017 made me go through an adventure: losing a job, moving to a new apartment, trying to find a job, doing some activities, wasting time on nothing, and finally find a good job and go back to the academy.

Just because I have no one to share my year with, it doesn’t mean I can be put down for just a minute. I have many plans for the future, and I can’t wait to see what happens next year. Though I’m a bit under the weather these few days, and I can’t feel hopeful, I should remind myself that I’m doing fine, and things will be fine.

 

I’m going to write few resolutions for 2018 now:  (very simple and casual)
1. Lose weight (and workout more).
2. No more wasting money on clothes (which don’t fit me that well).
3. Study more. Just a bit more.
4. Go out less. (it’s not like I go out a lot, and it’s not like I’m missing anything out there).
5. Reduce the number of my friends. Not all of them are worth it (no worried, my friends don’t really read my blog).
6. Travel. Really, even when I have no one to travel with.
7. Don’t date. At all. Unless they prove their worth.
8. Write more in this blog.

I just hope to keep at least half of these resolutions.

Cheers to everyone who’s reading my blog. Just don’t get too drunk on New Year’s Eve. I know I will, if I physically feel better by then.

8 comments

  1. Arwa – you are a precious lady with special talent.

    n this New Year I wish that you have a wonderful January, a lovely February, a Peaceful March, a stress-free April, a fun-filled May, and Joy that lasts from June to November, and finally a happy December. May my wishes come true and may you have a charming and lucky New Year 2018.

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    1. My dear friend. Thank you so much.
      I wish you a wonderful year filled with adventures and success.
      Happy new year !

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  2. By the way, meeting that special someone usually happens when we’re not looking. That’s my story, and my husband and I have been together almost 30 years. 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words.
      I suppose there’s always pressure in life. Perhaps I should only focus on work and school pressure for now.
      I know that finding a husband to show off to my family won’t solve any kind of criticism or pressure. But maybe I felt this way because I’m merely in a need of a partner in my life.
      But that’s alright. I’ve decided that this from now on I should focus on my other needs in life: excel in my studies, and become better at my job.

      And Happy new year :))

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      1. I think your attitude is healthy and great! I went through a similar phase, and then I met my husband when I was 26, in a funny way. So I didn’t expect it, was focused on other things, and it happened. My point is that there is always hope. Hang in there and stay optimistic. You can tell I’m a mom. 🙂 Happy New Year!

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        1. I understand what you’re saying. Sometimes I feel that finding a husband is merely a social pressure. My mom for instance thinks that it’s a personal choice that I don’t have a husband yet. She thinks that I don’t want to get married, and she tries to convince me to think differently or change my personality so I can be found suitable for eligible bachelors.
          I try to show her that I’m open minded, and I’m not really stubborn or rebellious.
          My other concern is: I do date, and I do fall in love, but men I fall for are cheaters, or commitment phobics, or as Bridget Jones would put it “Emotional fuckwits”. And it’s exhausting.

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          1. I appreciate you opening up, and I completely understand about the men who you have dated. There are jerks out there, and they existed in “my time” too. Just stay safe and selective and focus more on your other goals, while staying hopeful in your heart. I also appreciate you “hearing me out” because I’m not your mom. 🙂 I just want to see others happy and try to help if I can…Happy New Year’s Eve! p.s. I loved those Bridget Jones movies!

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  3. Hi Arwa,
    One thing that stood out is not to compare yourself to others. That alone can be disastrous. As I’ve told you before, you’ve accomplished a lot! A husband or a partner in life doesn’t complete anyone. Everyone should be true to themselves, pursue their goals and what makes them happy. Finding someone to share our lives with is simply a bonus and a blessing. I think your list is healthy, and mine has changed to goals rather than resolutions. All we can do is try. There is Christmas pressure, and there is also New Year pressure. Don’t be so hard on yourself. 🙂 Wishing you a very Happy New Year!

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