A writer, a dream

About ten years ago I decided that I want to become a writer. I was dreaming about becoming one of those best-selling authors that can live this exciting life of just spending time in solitude and write.

I spent my late teen years (18 and 19) trying to write. I knew I lacked the language skills. I knew that I need to keep practicing. But back then my head was wild. I had many stories to tell, and a great amount of worlds to explore. I was an avid reader, and a struggling writer.

As Virginia Woolf said, “A woman must have money and a room of her own if she is to write fiction.” Back then I had no room of my own, and no money, and I was eager to write fiction.

Now I have a flat of mine, and a good income, but I don’t have the time or the imagination to write fiction. Most of the time I don’t feel motivated, nor inspired.

But my language has become better now, and I wish I can find that strong drive to put my heart and soul into writing, and finally live the dream I had ten years ago.

I owe to my 18 year-old me to publish a wonderful story. And receive good recognition.

I owe to my self now, because I decided to drop out of my graduate studies to focus on my hobbies after work, and on the weekend. But what am I doing after work and on the weekend? I’m wasting my time looking for inspiration instead of motivating myself to compose.

And then I go downtown, face the real world to end up having a drink instead of staying home, in my own room, saving my own money, to live up to my dream and write a piece of fiction.

 

Perhaps it’s time now to dedicate an hour every other day, to write, or to research an specific idea. And I have to promise myself to try harder this time. And keep trying to become a good author. So then my 18 year-old me would be proud.

1 Comment

  1. I think setting aside some time each day is a great idea. And I also feel that if writing a piece of fiction is your passion, you won’t have to work hard at making it happen. You’ll want to sit down, pen in hand, or hands on keyboard, and allow your ideas to tumble out, creating that awesome story you’ve longed to tell. 🙂

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